Friday, April 25, 2008

Snapshot of Now

This is how I literally look right now, blog readers:

It's 7 pm on Friday and my Single-Mom shift should end at about 5:30 pm, but Jason is on-call with the Fire Department, which means he has training. Today, it means that some idiot got the Fire Truck stuck, and so he has to go somewhere and dig it out. This also means that I just had my Mommy and Me time extended another bedtime. Yes, those are real tears. It's really quite pathetic, why am I crying? Because I'm exhausted. Hazen is either growing/teething/or has ANOTHER FETCHING EAR INFECTION, and he isn't sleeping. He's normally so great, and I feel sorry for him, but my patience is waning right now. Probably because i'm doing it all by myself. I think another reason I'm so upset about this, is because all week long, I tell myself I can handle anything until 6pm on Friday. Yeah, 6 pm came and went, and I've just about unraveled.

So no, my life isn't perfect. I have an absent husband, and it freaking blows.

14 comments:

Gabriella said...

I know your pain Anne, I can't tell you how many times Matt says "I'll be home at 5." I think Great, I just have to make it to 5 (especially those days when Kate's "On One.") And then 5 rolls around, no Matt, 6 rolls around, no Matt, 7, 8, and oh look who shows up at 9:45pm. Those days suck, pardon my language. If I were there I'd come over and give you a hug and then watch Hazen so you could take a nap. Hang in there, days like this make you stronger...don't they?...I tell myself that.

Jessica said...

Ooh, let's be criers together. I am having a full on pregnancy migraine AND nausea and my husband isn't home yet either (7:21 pm) and my kids haven't eaten cause I can't drag myself down to the kitchen to feed them.

Anonymous said...

Hey, I just wanted to let you know that I'm sad for you. It's rough when the little guy isn't feeling up to par. I hope your husband comes home to be with you soon. In the meantime, hang in there!

Anonymous said...

I love you Anne! And I have to hand it to you... you look great even when you are crying, unlike me with my splotchy red face and bloodshot eyes!

Amanda Fetters said...

Muah! I love you!

paige said...

Poor girl - I totally feel for ya. Lorin isn't home either, but I knew he was working a late shift so I worked it out to put Polly to bed at 7:30. Late hours are the worst when it's unscheduled because I know it's something you don't plan on & you do feel like you should be "off" at 5 or 6 like the rest of the working world. Hang in there - I am sure it's no fun for J at work right now either. He would much rather be home! I hope to see a "happy" post tomorrow. :)

diane said...

I could never be a single parent. I can't handle it. Hang in and I hope the weekend gets better!

Kirsten Krason said...

Oh man. When I live there we will hang out when Jason is gone. Josh doesn't even really live here anymore so I feel your pain. He is living in Milwaukee right now. wHAT THE heck! Most of the time I'm fine with being all alone but every now and then I just have a good cry about it. I'm glad you posted this. Everyone gets lonely so it's good to rememebr we're not alone.

Sarah said...

Oh honey I am sooo sorry!

It's Friday, next time pack shorty up and go invade your sister's house... perfect excuse for a slumber party. I know it is exhausting to have no form of coherent conversation all day, every day, and I was paid for it!

You hang in there sweetie... this too shall pass and will make a great guilt trip later on when you want Hazen to do chores around the house.

Anna said...

I know how badly that sucks! I wish I had some good advice on how to make it better, but I am HORRIBLE at seeing the brighter side of things when Michael is gone all of the time.
Hang in there though, you can do it. The one thing that might give me some joy is, I know this won't last forever. (it only helps a little. :))

Liz said...

I'm sorry you're so exhausted. I'm already worrying about how I'm going to handle the days and nights that Scott is at the fire station. I don't function without lots of sleep, but I guess that's going to have to change.

Unknown said...

I don't know who looks more tired! You are HAL! Hang in there babe!

Brandi Lyn said...

:( My heart goes out to you Anne. You handle everything that comes your way so well. I swear, next time i come to Utah im taking that cutle little boy of yours and letting you get a full 24 hours of rest!! You totally deserve it. I remember after Nicci had surgery she was drugged up on Lortab but still was consistantly fussy and she hardly ever slept. If it wasn't for my mom i could NOT have made it through. You can do it Anne! Good luck, my prayers are with you :)

Nortorious said...

What does fetching mean?