Happy Birthday, My Love

Dear Hazen,

Two years ago, everything about my world changed, because I met you. I feel inadequate trying to express my feelings towards you in words, because if I could ever hope to pen a portion of how deep my love really goes, I would spend the remainder of my life authoring novels just for you.

I try not to get caught up in the depth of my emotion about you too often, because I find it overwhelming and so, so humbling. Hazen, as your mother, I don't know that you will ever know how much I love you. I don't know why Heavenly Father entrusted such a special soul to me, but it brings me to my knees in gratitude that He did.


Every child is a special gift from God, but you, Hazen, are my miracle. The moment that you entered this world, my universe started spinning on an entirely new axis, and there was not one thing in my life that didn't change for the better. Our first days together were so hard, little boy, but I'm grateful, because they allowed us to form a bond that I don't know I would be able to have otherwise.

Hazen, you can be a conundrum. Somedays, you drive me crazy. Some days, I yell at you, and we fight with one another, but invariably on those days, one of us will break down in tears and run into one another's arms. Why? Because we belong together. You and I, we're made from the same mold, and as insane as we make one another some days, and WILL for the rest of our lives, we just can't live without each other.

Hazen, you cause me to want to be not only the best mother to you that I can be, but the best woman that I know how to be. I will not settle to be mediocre, because you, my dear, deserve better than that. You are such a smart, strong, incredible little boy, and as I watch you grow and learn and touch those around you, I am in awe of the things that you'll become.

I thought I loved you 2 years ago. That was only a sliver of the love I have for you now. I can't wait to spend forever being your Mom. Happy Birthday, Buddy.